• With us

    He’s coming home. Runcorn phoned, we can come and collect him. We took our little fluffy cloud to the hospital hoping he’d recover but it wasn’t meant to be. All I can do now is fill my necklace I got for myself with his ashes. We took Django with us to the hospital and needless to say, the anaesthesiologist couldn’t stop kissing him. The quote of today: ” I love the smell of their sweaty paws”, she said talking about puppies 🙂 Wiedziałam, że jeśli pochowam moją włochatą chmurkę w domowym ogrodzie, to nigdy się nie przeprowadzę, nie sprzedam domu, nie pójdę do przodu. Może infantylne, ale tak by było.…

  • Django

    5 days, this is how long I was able to stand the silence. I hated it, I despised it, I wanted it out of my life. Not hearing Bigos’ paws on the stairs, not hearing his snoring, not being able to put my hands in his fur and give him a hug was a torture. I kept crying and crying and I realised that I’m on the way to get seriously depressed. So I chose preloved.co.uk and started looking for a pup that would be nothing like Bigos. DIfferent breed, different name, complete opposite. We found the farm in Powys, the owners just welcomed a litter of border-collie pups. Only…

  • Signs

    I believe in signs, I really do. Yesterday we all went for a walk up in Moel Famau. Dad took thousands of pictures and when he came back home looked through them. Then he Face-Timed me saying I’m not gonna believe this particular one. Now, before you put a label of a mad person on me, let me explain. It was cloudy, there was no sun, noone saw anything. One may not believe in anything like that and that’s OK. But It brought me comfort. This picture was taken on the day Bigos was cremated. White ray of light coming from the tree branches. You can almost see a silhouette…

  • Moel Famau

    5 hours walk up to Moel Famau. Bigos made it only once. From the top of the Moel Famau mountain you can see all the places we lived together. I left a woolen dog and a black ribbon up there. Spotted a field of heather with a solitary, cotton -like plant in the middle. Beautiful. i Dziś całą rodziną przez 5 godzin szliśmy na szczyt Moel Famau. Bigos wspiął się tam tylko raz. Ze szczytu widać właściwie wszystkie miejsca, w których mieszkaliśmy razem. Powiesiliśmy wstążkę, po drodze znaleźliśmy samotny krzak bawełny, którego kwiaty przypomniały nam wszystkim białe, Bigosowe futerko… Leczymy się wspomnieniami.

  • End is a beginning of something new.

    It wasn’t a deciding night, there were deciding hours. At 23.00 we took the decision to euthanise. I’ve got no tears left to cry. Bigos was with me almost from the very beginning of my new life in the UK. I can’t tell you how much I miss him already, I have no words. I need to believe this is a beginning of something new. Below: the first and the last picture I’ve ever taken of my beautiful fluffy cloud. I love you so much <3 To nie była decydująca noc, to były decydujące godziny. O 23.00 podjęliśmy decyzję o uśpieniu. Byliśmy z nim do ostatniego momentu. Nie mam łez.…

  • Deciding night

    We’ve had a wonderful month with Bigos. He was so happy and healthy, being able to sleep and enjoy life. Full four weeks. The nightmare started yesterday. He stopped weeing and although everything supposed to be OK, wasn’t. We took him to Runcorn Hospital, they told us they are very hopeful, he peed, he is gonna be fine, but then a few hours after another phone call – things are getting worse but could improve, we need to wait. If there is another phone call in the evening, it means that we need to go to say our last goodbyes. I hope noone calls. Before we took him to the…

  • Kefir and honey ice cream for dogs

    Ok, so… If your dogs needs good gut bacteria and is not lactose intolerant, you can help him by making kefir and honey ice- cream cubes. Bigos absolutely loves them and it;s a massive immune booster as well as gut helper. Dissolve two heap spoons of honey in a small bottle of kefir (you can buy a very good quality kefir in Polish shops) and freeze it. One once a day is enough to help your dog who is undertaking an antibiotic treatment. You can purchase a very good honey called BeeComplex in Polish grocery stores – it’s got bee pollen, propolis and royal jelly. Delicious!   Obiecałam – dotrzymuję…